Wait.....

Boy how I have come to not like that word...wait.

Sometimes you wait so long for something that when it actually looks like it MIGHT happen...you really don't believe it.

Sometimes when you are anxious for an event to occur then it seems to take even longer.

When I was questioning God's plan and Big Red's refusal to consider children someone gave me the book called Wait.


Molasses. I feel at times like my life moves at the speed of Molasses in the dead of winter.

I now know that God had my best interests in mind. No I am not saying He took my children or gave me this disease but He worked it for the better of my life.

I have a nephew who has a birthday today. I haven't been allowed to see him but only twice in the last 7 years. I can't even remember how old he is.

I have had a headache for about 3 weeks now. I am currently unable to regulate my blood by my current medications. Too thin?...Too thick? Just wait a day or so and it will change. I need to get this insurance situation figured out so that I can go see the specialist.

But on a happier note I am in first place on the Fafazazzi! I am kicking butt. Even with all the crazy stuff little Miss Britney Spears has been up to it is no match for having Howard K. Stern AND Larry Birkhead (both claim fatherhood of Anna Nichole Smith's baby).